这篇小说在我的写作中算是一个异类。现在看来它有许多遗憾,尤其是结尾,很是仓促。但我并没有修改它的念头——我不想用现在的思维去强制改变当初的想法。或许这篇小说最可贵的地方就在于它保持了一种近乎原始的写作冲动。除了结尾有些刻意外(因为能力所限,当时我没有想到更好的结尾),小说的其它部分是靠某种气息推进出来的。我感受到了写作的乐趣与自由。是的,自由,这或许是小说对我最大的意义。记得在电影《裸体午餐》中,主人公为写作下的定义:“去 This novel is a different kind of writing in my writing. It now appears that it has many regrets, especially at the end, it is very hasty. But I did not change its mind - I do not want to use the current thinking to force change the original idea. Perhaps the most valuable part of the novel is that it maintains an almost primitive impulse of writing. Except for a few moments ending (because of my ability, I did not think of a better ending then), the rest of the novel was propelled by some sort of aura. I feel the joy and freedom of writing. Yes, freedom, this may be the novel of my greatest significance. I remember in the movie ”Nude Lunch“, the hero is writing the definition: ”go