那时候,父亲患了癌症,而我又不得不赶时间修改一部剧本。我将一张小小的桌子从阳台移到了父亲床边,目光稍一转移,就能看到父亲仰躺着的苍白的脸。而父亲稍微一睁眼就能看见我和他对面养了十几条美丽金鱼的大鱼缸。这是父亲不能起床后我为他买的。十月的阳光照耀着我,照耀着父亲。他已知自己将不久于人世,然而只要我在身旁,他脸上必呈现着对生死的镇定和对儿子的信赖。 At that time, my father had cancer, and I had to rush to amend a script. I moved a small table from the balcony to my father’s bed. I shifted my gaze to see the pale face of my father’s back. The father can see a large fish tank with a dozen beautiful gold fishes facing him opposite him. This is what I bought for him after his father could not get up. The October sun shines on me and shines on my father. He knew that he would soon die, but as long as I was right beside him, there would be a calming of life and death and a trust in his son.