I was the best student in my high school. I put so much pressure on myself. I never failed a class. But I got sick during 10th grade and I started to fall behind①. That’s when the panic attacks② began. One day the teacher handed me my grade report， and I couldn’t breathe. My heart was beating very fast. I felt disconnected. I saw people trying to talk to me but I couldn’t hear them. Eventually I passed out and woke up in the infirmary③. The attacks were almost daily after that. Last year I started college. And I can’t be the best student here no matter how④hard I try. Everyone is so talented⑤. My panic attacks got so bad that I had to cancel my first semester. But now I’m working on acknowledging⑥ my anxiety. I used to try to hide it. I would log off⑦ social media. I wouldn’t answer calls. I thought that if nobody knew， it didn’t exist. But the more I talk about my problem， the more I realize that other people experience similar things. So I’m trying to express it more. I had a great teacher who told me： "Instead of letting anxiety keep you from doing your art， let it be the thing that motivates⑧y o u r art."
　　我曾是我們高中最好的学生。我给自己施加很大的压力，从没挂过任何一科。但我在十年级的时候生了病，然后就开始落后了，那时我的恐惧症开始了。一天，老师递给我我的成绩单，我都无法呼吸了，心跳得特别快。我蒙了，我看到有人试着跟我说话，但我听不见。最后我昏倒了，在医务室里醒来。从那之后，恐惧症几乎每天都会发作。去年，我开始上大学了。无论多么努力，我都不能成为这里最好的学生，每个人都那么有才华。我的恐惧症变得很严重，以至于我第一个学期不得不休学，但现在我正在努力承认我的忧虑。我曾经试图掩饰它，我会注销社交媒体，不接电话。我曾想，如果没人知道，那它就不存在。但是我越是谈及我的问题，就越发意识到其他人也经历着类似的事情，所以我试着更多地表达自己。我有一位伟大的老师，他告诉我说：“与其让忧虑阻止你成就你的艺术，不如让它成为激发你的艺术的东西。”