“踌躇”一词在《背影》中有着特殊的作用,是深入理解父亲的精神面貌的重要突破口。 要理解“踌躇”,还得从家庭背景谈起。祖母死了,父亲的差使也交卸了,还亏空变买典质,办丧事又借新债,家中光景很是惨淡。在这种背景下,每个家庭成员的心里都宠罩着悲哀。正当全家人还没有从悲哀中解脱出来的时候,“父亲要到南京谋事,我也要回北京念书”,骨肉分离,又增添一层新的凄凉。 The word “踌躇” has a special role in “Back” and is an important breakthrough in understanding the father’s mental outlook. In order to understand the “cricket”, we must start from the family background. The grandmother died. The father’s messenger was also unloaded. She also lost money to become a veteran, and took funerals and borrowed new debt. The family scene was bleak. In this context, the hearts of every family member are covered in sorrow. Just as the family has not escaped from grief, “My father is going to Nanjing to work, and I will return to Beijing to study,” and the separation of flesh and blood will add a new layer of desolateness.