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Airi was still playing hard when I came into the basketball court. I watched him jumping up and throwing a beautiful curve that landed the ball perfectly on the “gum” next to me. Airi said he was o－riginally aiming at me, but was too tired to be precise1, just wait be－cause one day he will succeed at hitting me. I thought he completely ignored the girl who got the hit. Scintilla looked at Airi and com－plained about the pain. Scintille smiled and said, “Sorry pretty girl, but it was not intentional2.” “Yeah right, he was not intending, he was ful－filling a plan,” I said. Scintilla was bewildered, she gazed at Airi and asked him to compensate3 by inviting her and her only to dinner. I disregarded the “help me” look Airi was casting over and said I had to go to attend to some other business.
The next day Airi had a sharp sword in his eyes, I looked at him like he was already dead meat and said, “Buddy, you are damn lucky, Scintilla is one of the five beauties in our grade. After all, she looks good with make up, why don’t you just ac－cept you fate?” Airi smirked, “Oh yeah? Cosmetic beauty, pre－tending beauty!” Then he turned to leave, I watched him go and suddenly felt a heartache.
Then for a long time, Scintilla was messing with me and Airi. I was totally disgusted by her fake smiles. Scintilla kept asking me if I knew Airi’s favorite color, the things he like, and that he changed his cellphone number... “I am pretty sure you don’t know,” she said, “since you are so ill-informed.” Finally I couldn’t take it anymore, last time I saw her, “I want to throw up” was the only thing I said. I don’t like superficial4 girls cov－ered in makeup, and people relying on money to get to the so called “road to success”. Scintilla was the combination of every－thing I hate.
I left as soon as I could, the sky was as dark as a mirror re－flecting sand, something exploded from every corner of my body, gradually expanding to cover the whole. I heard someone call my name, Ver Ver Ver. I grabbed my head and said I didn’t want to hear anything again. I sat in the bench around the street and watched the storm take over, I stared at the blurred scener－ies not far away but I couldn’t see anything. A freezing sensa－tion entered through the end of my hair, I forgot time when I stopped to think.
When I woke up, I saw Airi smiling at me—a saddening smile. He said, “Ver, why don’t take good care of yourself? You were out during yesterday’s heavy rain. I was looking all over the place for you, for a long time.” Suddenly I felt I was about to cry. “Ver, don’t move, your temperature is 39.8 Celsius,” Airi said, “please not move, I beg you not to move, I beg you.” I had an urge to grab Airi when he got up to leave. I tried to lift up my hand but I couldn’t. My eyes were misty by the time he vanished from the room.
It was in a bright sunny day that I learned Airi and Scintilla were dating. Tilla appeared in front of me holding Airi’s hand. The servile5 look she used to have in her eyes changed into some－thing lofty6. When she was about to pass me while holding his hand, I saw the sneer she revealed somewhat intention－ally. She stepped on my right foot while the sense of loss continued to extend in his eyes. Their figures shrank, dimmed, and then finally disappeared. I said it was good they disappeared, because the cleaner my view, the sooner I could re－gain my inner peace.
来到篮球场时艾瑞依然在奋战，我看着他轻松地跃起把篮球抛出一道漂亮的弧线，然后漂亮地砸到了我身边口香糖的头上。艾瑞说目标偏了一点点本来想砸你的，今天太累了精准度不够了，薇儿你等着我会成功的。我想他完全忽视了那个真正中靶的女生的存在。思蒂拉看着艾瑞说，好痛。艾瑞笑着说对不起啊美女我不是故意的。我说是啊思蒂拉他不是故意的他只是成心的而已。思蒂拉眼神迷乱地看着艾瑞说，那么为了补偿我你可要请客啊，只请我一个！我无视艾瑞向我投来的求助的目光，我说，今晚我有事，先走了。
第二天艾瑞看到我时眼中暴出一道剑光，我怜悯地看着他说小子你真有艳福，思蒂拉可是咱们年级五朵金花之一呀好歹人家也算个妆美女嘛你认了吧。艾瑞说，是，妆美女，装美女！然后艾瑞转身离开，我看着他的背影忽然觉得心痛。
之后在很长一段时间里思蒂拉始终在我和艾瑞之间盘旋，我看着她虚伪的笑忽然觉得反胃。思蒂拉说薇儿告诉我啦艾瑞喜欢什么颜色啊，他喜欢什么东西，他手机又换号了你不知道吧他都告诉我了你还真是孤陋寡闻。最后一次看到她时我说，我想吐。我不喜欢没有内涵的女生凭着浓厚的盛妆充当低俗的胭脂美女，不喜欢有人依靠金钱走上所谓的成功之路。而思蒂拉，偏偏独占了为我所厌恶所不齿的全部类型。
那天我走得很急，天色昏暗得如同映了黄沙的镜，有什么东西从我身体内的每一个角落迸裂开来，一点一点地蔓延了全身。我听到有人在说薇儿薇儿薇儿，我猛地抱住头说我不要再听。我坐在街角的长椅上看着风沙席卷了漫天，我怔怔地看着不远处模糊的风景可我什么也看不见。有冰冷的感觉顺着发稍侵袭了全身，我在停止了思想的过程中忘记了时间。
当我醒来的时候看到艾瑞悲伤地冲着我笑，他说薇儿为什么不好好爱护自己，昨天雨那么大你一直没有回来我找了你很久。我忽然觉得很难过，艾瑞说薇儿你不要动你发烧了三十九度八，不要动好不好，我求你了，求你了。艾瑞起身的时候我忽然有种想拉住他的冲动，我努力地想要抬起手可是却没有能够做到。我看着他走出房间的时候眼前一片朦胧。
得知艾瑞和思蒂拉交往的那天阳光明媚得刺眼，思蒂拉拉着艾瑞的手出现在我面前的时候以往她低声下气的眼神忽然开始趾高气扬起来，她牵着他的手从我身边跑过的时候我看到她有意无意间讥讽高傲的笑，她在艾瑞眼神中的失落不断蔓延的瞬间踩过我的右脚，他和她的身影就这样不断缩小不断模糊然后消失在我的眼前。我说消失了也好，干干净净的也许比较安宁。
丁 骏 译（待续）
The next day Airi had a sharp sword in his eyes, I looked at him like he was already dead meat and said, “Buddy, you are damn lucky, Scintilla is one of the five beauties in our grade. After all, she looks good with make up, why don’t you just ac－cept you fate?” Airi smirked, “Oh yeah? Cosmetic beauty, pre－tending beauty!” Then he turned to leave, I watched him go and suddenly felt a heartache.
Then for a long time, Scintilla was messing with me and Airi. I was totally disgusted by her fake smiles. Scintilla kept asking me if I knew Airi’s favorite color, the things he like, and that he changed his cellphone number... “I am pretty sure you don’t know,” she said, “since you are so ill-informed.” Finally I couldn’t take it anymore, last time I saw her, “I want to throw up” was the only thing I said. I don’t like superficial4 girls cov－ered in makeup, and people relying on money to get to the so called “road to success”. Scintilla was the combination of every－thing I hate.
I left as soon as I could, the sky was as dark as a mirror re－flecting sand, something exploded from every corner of my body, gradually expanding to cover the whole. I heard someone call my name, Ver Ver Ver. I grabbed my head and said I didn’t want to hear anything again. I sat in the bench around the street and watched the storm take over, I stared at the blurred scener－ies not far away but I couldn’t see anything. A freezing sensa－tion entered through the end of my hair, I forgot time when I stopped to think.
When I woke up, I saw Airi smiling at me—a saddening smile. He said, “Ver, why don’t take good care of yourself? You were out during yesterday’s heavy rain. I was looking all over the place for you, for a long time.” Suddenly I felt I was about to cry. “Ver, don’t move, your temperature is 39.8 Celsius,” Airi said, “please not move, I beg you not to move, I beg you.” I had an urge to grab Airi when he got up to leave. I tried to lift up my hand but I couldn’t. My eyes were misty by the time he vanished from the room.
It was in a bright sunny day that I learned Airi and Scintilla were dating. Tilla appeared in front of me holding Airi’s hand. The servile5 look she used to have in her eyes changed into some－thing lofty6. When she was about to pass me while holding his hand, I saw the sneer she revealed somewhat intention－ally. She stepped on my right foot while the sense of loss continued to extend in his eyes. Their figures shrank, dimmed, and then finally disappeared. I said it was good they disappeared, because the cleaner my view, the sooner I could re－gain my inner peace.
来到篮球场时艾瑞依然在奋战，我看着他轻松地跃起把篮球抛出一道漂亮的弧线，然后漂亮地砸到了我身边口香糖的头上。艾瑞说目标偏了一点点本来想砸你的，今天太累了精准度不够了，薇儿你等着我会成功的。我想他完全忽视了那个真正中靶的女生的存在。思蒂拉看着艾瑞说，好痛。艾瑞笑着说对不起啊美女我不是故意的。我说是啊思蒂拉他不是故意的他只是成心的而已。思蒂拉眼神迷乱地看着艾瑞说，那么为了补偿我你可要请客啊，只请我一个！我无视艾瑞向我投来的求助的目光，我说，今晚我有事，先走了。
第二天艾瑞看到我时眼中暴出一道剑光，我怜悯地看着他说小子你真有艳福，思蒂拉可是咱们年级五朵金花之一呀好歹人家也算个妆美女嘛你认了吧。艾瑞说，是，妆美女，装美女！然后艾瑞转身离开，我看着他的背影忽然觉得心痛。
之后在很长一段时间里思蒂拉始终在我和艾瑞之间盘旋，我看着她虚伪的笑忽然觉得反胃。思蒂拉说薇儿告诉我啦艾瑞喜欢什么颜色啊，他喜欢什么东西，他手机又换号了你不知道吧他都告诉我了你还真是孤陋寡闻。最后一次看到她时我说，我想吐。我不喜欢没有内涵的女生凭着浓厚的盛妆充当低俗的胭脂美女，不喜欢有人依靠金钱走上所谓的成功之路。而思蒂拉，偏偏独占了为我所厌恶所不齿的全部类型。
那天我走得很急，天色昏暗得如同映了黄沙的镜，有什么东西从我身体内的每一个角落迸裂开来，一点一点地蔓延了全身。我听到有人在说薇儿薇儿薇儿，我猛地抱住头说我不要再听。我坐在街角的长椅上看着风沙席卷了漫天，我怔怔地看着不远处模糊的风景可我什么也看不见。有冰冷的感觉顺着发稍侵袭了全身，我在停止了思想的过程中忘记了时间。
当我醒来的时候看到艾瑞悲伤地冲着我笑，他说薇儿为什么不好好爱护自己，昨天雨那么大你一直没有回来我找了你很久。我忽然觉得很难过，艾瑞说薇儿你不要动你发烧了三十九度八，不要动好不好，我求你了，求你了。艾瑞起身的时候我忽然有种想拉住他的冲动，我努力地想要抬起手可是却没有能够做到。我看着他走出房间的时候眼前一片朦胧。
得知艾瑞和思蒂拉交往的那天阳光明媚得刺眼，思蒂拉拉着艾瑞的手出现在我面前的时候以往她低声下气的眼神忽然开始趾高气扬起来，她牵着他的手从我身边跑过的时候我看到她有意无意间讥讽高傲的笑，她在艾瑞眼神中的失落不断蔓延的瞬间踩过我的右脚，他和她的身影就这样不断缩小不断模糊然后消失在我的眼前。我说消失了也好，干干净净的也许比较安宁。
丁 骏 译（待续）