①母亲在她21岁那年生下我,比母亲还小两岁的父亲,顺理成章地成为“小爸爸”。那时,他在村里谋得一份工作,做会计。他对工作倒是上心,早出晚归,对我的到来却感到惊慌失措。他从来不让我碰他的账本,每每我哭闹时,他也只是以巴掌相待,很少把我抱在怀里哄劝。记忆里,我很少和父亲亲近。 ① The mother gave birth to me at the age of 21 and her father, two years younger than her mother, became a “little father” naturally. At that time, he was in the village for a job, accounting. He was quite concerned about his work, coming back early and returning late, feeling panicked at my arrival. He never let me touch his books, every time I cry, he also only slap in the face, rarely hold me in his arms coaxing. In my memory, I seldom get close to my father.